I am a 65 year old female living in a state of the art retirement community with my husband of 16 years. They boast of over 1000 clubs and activities to choose from. I find myself uninterested in most of them and cannot find joy in my daily activities. I am hypothyroid since age 13 and have suffered with this most of my 65 years. I have just been diagnosed with anxious depression although I have been depressed for as long as I can remember. I was dyslexic in school and teased and ridiculed for being so. ONce dyslexic, always dyslexic and some of these taunting behaviors are coming back to me from my peers at age 65. You are not good enough to walk to school with us now has become you are not good enough to play golf with us. this year has been the worst in declining health for me. suddenly after my 65 birthday, my health declined, my antidepressant paxil quit working and I tried to commit suicide by inhaling exhaust fumes for two hours while my husband played golf. I was baker acted and sent to a state run hospital for five days. It was truly the most awful experience of my life. I am currently being treated for anxious depression at an wonderful outpatient facility in Ocala Fl. I was recently diagnosed with anxious depression by a psychiatrist who specializes in the elderly population. Reading this article further depresses me as it is impossible for me to get rid of negative thought patterns in my daily life. I have received excellent therapy at this treatment facility for one week and even cried for the first time in 16 or more years. Today, I felt hopeless about getting better in the future and felt my own pronosis was poor. I asked my therapist how long my treatment would be and she said, a long time as my suicide attempt was very severe. I have lost most of my friends due to this illness, but my husband is my rock of support. He ran a residential treatment facility for combat veterans in California after having been diagnosed with PTSD himself. After reading this article I am disheartened to find that treating patients like myself is not very easy and their prognosis is not good. What help can you give me. I am currently taking celexa after being on Paxil for a number of years. I do believe the paxil contributed to my suicide attempt when it quit working. |
Posted by: Phyllis Bartolo 3/14/2008 5:29:09 AM
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